The joy of walking
Updated: Aug 31, 2020
August 22, 2020
Hello! I hope this letter finds you well, my beautiful family.
Today was a very nice Saturday because I was so happy to see you in the video chat and tell you a little of what is happening here inside and how my health is. I also want to thank you for telling me that I am a good writer! Even though my penmanship is bad, the important thing is that you understand what I'm trying to say.
Do you know that sometimes, I want to tell you more about my life, but I don't do it for two reasons. The first is that I don't want to make you sad and the second is that I don't want to remember the past because it hurts my heart too much. I have so many wounds, some wounds so profound that they still have not healed. I ask God to please heal and cure my wounds.
I want to thank you for buying me the tennis shoes. I am so happy because I will have new shoes, a thousand thanks, my friend. Thanks to you, I can listen to music, buy food, and now I will be able to walk outside again. Wow! When I put them on and begin to walk, I will feel like I am in the clouds! The only thing I can say is thank you , although I really want to give you another hug, like we were able to do when you came to my hearing. But sometimes I think that I will never have the chance to hug you again, and your family as well. When I think about how wonderful it would be to be able to hug you all, I get very emotional.
Do you know, Jane, that I had the custom of walking arm in arm with my mother? We would always walk down the street, to the market, the park, church. I loved walking arm in arm with my mama. One time, we arrived at a store to buy a chicken, and the store owner was looking at us a little strangely, but I did not let go of my mama. And my mama simply said, daughter, which chicken do you think we should buy? And I said that one! When we were leaving, the daughter of the store owner greeted us and said "good day!" and then to me, she said "Are you doing the shopping with your mother today?" And I said yes, I am walking with my beautiful mother. And my mother said, yes, my daughter and I always walk arm in arm. The girl told my mother, congratulations on raising and educating such an excellent daughter, and then she said to me, Take care of your mother, and I said, of course I will, for the rest of my life.
I miss my mother so much, and all of my family. I miss hugging them, kissing them, watching tv together, cooking together, watching my mother laugh. When I talked to her on the telephone on Monday, my heart constricted. I hope that I can leave this place soon so I can see her again, so I can embrace her many times over. But I also feel like my heart would be in two places--half in El Salvador and half here with you.
My greetings to all your lovely family, i send you all many hugs and kisses. I want you all to know that you are always in my thoughts.